“I have struggled with childlessness, shame, low self-worth and chronic morbid obesity all my life – at my heaviest, I weighed 26 stone. I first came to Beauty from Ashes 7 years ago but then ran away from God, BFA, Church and more or less everyone else when I thought I was failing to ‘live up’ to other people’s expectations and maintain weight loss. Such visible failure is very, very painful. I consider myself incredibly privileged to spend my life at Beauty from Ashes praying with the lost, the broken, the wounded and the damaged. I am passionate about Jesus’ longing to heal the broken-hearted. I had lost all hope when the Lord used BFA to give me back my life and thereby my relationship with Him. I am on a journey towards healing – not the finished product yet – “but I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I have committed to Him…”. As well as the prayer ministry I love to speak at conferences, retreats and women's events as well as preach in churches and to share and write about ‘All the wonderful works of the Lord.’
During 2017 and 2018 Papa John and I found ourselves walking through “the Valley of the Shadow of Death” after a shock diagnosis of Stage 4 Prostate and Bone Cancer. A year before he died, Jesus showed Papa John the golden gates he would walk through into the heavenly realm and on 17 July those gates were opened wide and Papa John walked into the welcoming arms of Jesus in a transformed body.